Morning Blooms.

blog changed.

2010-06-22T20:44:00.001+08:00

want another blog site, prolly will change back blogger in a while.

BYE!

www.singsale.com.sg

2010-06-13T12:24:00.000+08:00

http://www.Singsale.com.sg/registration.aspx?invitedby=Lavenderella

IT'S ENDING!

2010-06-03T21:31:00.000+08:00

AND MY ONE MONTH OF SICU ORIENTATION IS HERE AND AFTER THAT I'M STARTING THE REAL THING! :( BOOOHOOOOOOOOOO!

GONNA SHOP ONCE I GOT MY PAY.

home made eye primer!

2010-05-15T23:19:00.000+08:00

I'd made my own eye primer. Actually wanted since few weeks ago since sister told me my eye shadow ceased and is not as pigmented as before. And I wanted to buy one today after I went for a make up trial by vinna dear when I realized eye primer is really impt! But did not get it as sister ordered e elf one for me. So meanwhile research and do it!

Things you need:
1. Foundation/concealor
2. Moisture cream/body butter (lotion that has thick consistency)
3. Small container
4. A small spatula or tooth pick!

First, squeeze a small amt of foundation or prolly a 20 cent coin size in e container. I've used my previous make up kit. Then add in e moisture cream which should be double e amt of e foundation you've added. Then stir till it's well mix! Tada! It's done.

Did a swatches of e eye shadow and really create a difference. Well, at least sth to make me happier this weekend.

super duper stressed up.

2010-05-12T20:53:00.000+08:00

I'd tests or rather exams for e next 2 days. Been to our respective wards today and I'm lost. Like every faces are unfamiliar and so does e workplace! E setting is so much different, well of coz. But I still feel I'm a student and I don't know what to do! I'm feeling lousy, super lousy! :(

stressed.

2010-05-05T22:21:00.000+08:00

Not even 1st wk of e training and I'm pressurized. 3 thick notes to revise on medication and cannulation, and bloody exams coming! Then with other assignments too about cultural stuffs. Wth and I hate some of my fellow colleagues and one ex jyss junior who is going same dept with me!

I so wanna die. :(

let's get back to reality.

2010-04-30T23:25:00.001+08:00

Hi, I'm a staff nurse from CGH.

Left with 2 days of holidays, like finally. Been looking forward to this day. Having mixtures of feelings and I can't believe I'd finished my 3 yrs of diploma course and I'm starting my very 1st full time job and it's a long journey. *nervous*

Well, let's pray everyone will be performing well! *cross fingers*

how shld I feel?

2010-04-21T14:58:00.003+08:00

Was woken up by a sms from Celia who is my SN from prcp, she saw e list of new nurses to different disciplines and I'm sent to SICU (Surgical Intensive Care/Critical Unit)!! I'm happy coz I've gotta a ward which is in my first 3 choices but disappointed as I wanna 39 which is my 1st choice. I'm feeling scared as ICU nurse has more responsibilities but I love patient centered care. Srsly I don't know how shld I feel. :(

my new baby.

2010-04-18T20:49:00.002+08:00

Bought a new baby and said byebye to my xiao hong. Well, it's been good so far but dataplan takes 5 working days to activate! I went to a shop which is a shared partner of starhub. If I know earlier, I'll go starhub of coz.

One thing I'm worried that when I'm surfing wireless will I be charged as gprs coz it happened to cousin. And her bill is bombed. I don't have wireless of coz. Can't wake for first bill so I can see.

saving money.

2010-04-13T15:54:00.002+08:00

yes, mobile line is transferred to my name and I can buy my bb pretty soon! (when pay is in, $$). but I'm not going a getaway anymore coz it's too rush and I don't have much resources to research on. but dates are packed with activities :) and of coz, my BCLS test is coming up in a week plus time. arghhh~

I found out that I kept scolding vulgarities when I'm at home - must be the kids and family drive me to this. sigh, can't wait for work soon and then I will dread for AL. :(

on last sat, I was woken up at 6.45am coz cousin fainted at home, rushed to cgh A&E and accompanied her for 4 hours. evening time, cousin baby cried coz she said her right arm is painful. rushed to kkh A&E as we were afraid she might have a fracture (long story) but xray is clean, it's muscle strained. busy on that day and barely sleep for 6 hours.

and.. starting to hate family coz they always annoys me and bad mouthing of me, and my sinus problem which seems to worsen this year. shan't mention anything to them in future.

I hope it rains. cool down my temper.

a good start this week.

2010-04-07T16:31:00.003+08:00

I tried to pack my last month of holidays full of activities. so..

on monday: I was having migraine in the afternoon while watching "Say Yes to the Dress", their boutique is Kleinfeld Bridal. gorgeous and lovely. watching it for 3 hours! then my nurse called me up to tell me they need ppl for captain's ball tournament (we lose coz they're violent! GOD) so I went and hit the gym after that with my friend. didn't know my migraine was so severe, popped 2 anarax and 1 voltaren and slept after that.

yesterday: I went to gym in the afternoon for an hour, showered and meet up my nurses as I was invited to her house for a sumptuous dinner! yummy!

I think I'll take a short nap later coz I'm going drinking tonight! I wanna go sentosa soon and I'm planning a trip to bintan during weekends or weekdays if possible. anyone?

always have this thoughts every morning when I wakes up.

2010-04-04T21:33:00.002+08:00

"when will I move out of this house and no worries on the housechores so that I can live freely in my life".

one month left to working life. I wanna go overseas! just let me get of of Singapore for a few days.

5 years and counting.

2010-04-04T21:23:00.002+08:00

Dear lao ma, I miss you very much. it's been 5 years since you went to another world and I hope you are doing good down there. if there's a chance in next life, I want to be your great-granddaughter again. if only I'm a nurse 5 years back so I will be able to take care of you.

alcohol and shisha.

2010-03-29T19:59:00.004+08:00

love drinking nights where you sat in front of your drink, away from reality and just keep drinking. though there's a hole in my pocket, but it's worth it. :)

we went yello jello as one of my friends wants to try out the 12 shooters. it was a friday so there's happy hours in the evening too. in e end he tried none of the shooters at all! it was syim and I who had tried - cowboy and bubblegum respectively. it's naise! before that he told me that he will treat me 12 shots if I dare to take the challenge but I did not drink any before! after I drank bubblegum, I told him I dare but he said it's not valid anymore! :@

so it was clinic. love the gold wheelchair! ♥ we ordered alcohol that comes in syringes but it tastes like fruit punch. felt that the drinks are overpriced at clinic. we were talking about the equipments and instruments they've used too. love their scrubs, was thinking if I don't wanna be a nurse anymore, I might join them :D

he owed me 12 shots.

went back to yello jello and ordered 6 shots of blowjob. they aren't naise and aren't bad. but it's not my type of drink. whipped cream at the top caused the drink not smooth enough to drink.

willie - he don't want me to follow him to his next destination coz he said his friends are hard liquor drinkers and they are complicated. they don't drink cocktail - I DON'T DRINK TOO!

next's up shisha at marrakesh which I smells bad when I'm going home with ann.

hope to go again soon. wed ladies night?

TGIF!

2010-03-26T00:31:00.003+08:00

at least there's plans in the evening and probably I will go for an express manicure sessions or shop for heels in the afternn. or shall I save so to get my blackberry soon.

hate holidays but I felt that I will miss it badly when I start working full time. my body clock is screwed (as usual ppl always talks about it). I'm still a morning person though and I can be very alert when I woke up at 6am, regardless how late I slept, but there's nth to do so I will be on my bed, toss around and finally slept at 8am and woke up at 10am again. have been sleeping for more than 8 hours which makes me lethargic. :( gonna tune back my body clock.

and finally I'm going some drinking sessions. :) next up with be sheesha.

waiting for them.

2010-03-24T16:16:00.002+08:00

I've bought Benefit cosmetics for 1 of my gfs for her bday gifts and I'm quite tempted to get one for myself too! lately I had discovered my blusher and loose powder are running low. I've used Revlon and EDM for blushers and Rimmel loose powder which I had to get from overseas. so I went ebay.sg which is always 1 of my fav. places to shop as it's instocks and some sellers sell items cheaper and you can compare them. AND I DON'T LIKE TO WAIT! sooo.. I'm getting this one!

weeeee! Benefit's dandelion blusher! 1 of their top sellers. :D hope it's coming soon.

and I will get this one when I've my pay. ELF HD loose powder. users have commented that this is good as MUFE loose powder which is ssooo expensive. I don't wanna have another hole in my pocket again. :(

a good clay mask which I've been using. can't wait.

think far.

2010-03-21T19:32:00.002+08:00

went to ikea last fri and it tempts me to buy loads of things! I love the themes, I want to decorate my own house when I have one and SOON! so I went to search numerous pictures from flickr.com to get more inspirations.

kitchens - I like it spacious but sg houses are always selfish in sizes esp. those new housing estates! I hope to have a private property in future. :S

if I got a HDB, hope it's like this. but I will keep every equipments in the drawers and cupboards.

pretty!! maybe for daughters.

I love white, cream, light brown or mint glory colours. rooms that are spacious too!

I think the best inspiration I've got is from Veron's place. I really love her house a lot! white, clean, spacious, super organized and bright (dustless!)

awww, I want my own house soon.

our efforts always will not be appreciated.

2010-03-18T16:04:00.002+08:00

I'm annoyed lately. maybe pms.

I'm bored too. just want to get out of sg.
yes overseas will be great. should be going hk, bali or taiwan next mth but I doubt so.

baking two cakes tonight. bye.

bad mood.

2010-02-28T20:45:00.003+08:00

the tension slowly builds up and I finally break down when I took the first step out from godma's house.

I shan't name who but I hate ppl who question other ppl about their doubts when I gave my answers. it gives me the feeling that they don't trust me and respect me. worse still, argued with my answers. I hate ppl who always wants me to repeat multiple times and pls clean your ears so you can listen ok.

why it's always me? I HATE IT WHY EVERY RESPONSIBILITY GOES TO ME COZ I'M THE ELDEST. everyone should be the same! I have been tolerating each time when ppl starts to pile up my responsibility. I've been nice to all of you - even though you guys blame me, calling me names, give me sarcastic remarks, ask me to sth and even argued with my nursing knowledge!!

I'M A FUCKING NURSE WHO SPENT 3 YEARS IN THE INSTITUTION AND HOSPITAL OF COURSE I'VE THE KNOWLEDGE!

maybe I should have show my authority at all times or I should have kept my mouth shut at all times. I won't let my eldest child feel this in the future.

日有所思夜有所梦

2010-02-28T15:37:00.001+08:00

prcp ends!

2010-02-26T23:13:00.004+08:00

I left the ward unwillingly yesterday. I wished to go back there as I'd 3 months of placement there - I'm familiarize with almost everything and I don't wanna to adapt to another ward again. the staffs are fab. :)

I'm praying every single day to get into that ward, fyi I'm employed by cgh :)

absurd.

2010-02-22T21:57:00.002+08:00

it's getting out of hand now. I wished I could get some respect from the family. they verbalized that when I'm long-winded when I start to comment on sth/someone. HELLO I'm just telling what I'm feeling and no one is willingly to listen to me and agree with me.

my uncle has been irritating me these few weeks. I'm annoyed! I had low tolerance with irritating naggy guys I swear! he keeps pestering me of where to go, asked me to accompany him, asked me to go to my gram's place coz there's no one he knows there (but IT'S OUR FAMILY AND EVERYONE IS CLOSE TO HIM!). if only I'd a gun, I will shoot him on the spot.

job application.

2010-01-29T23:03:00.000+08:00

shld I send it? or not.

wishlist.

2010-01-12T00:41:00.002+08:00

P90?

or cheaper alternative L100?

life's getting tougher in attachment. I could hardly take a break during shift; always check my cases; passing report to the staff with a blushed face; can't eat well, reached home to do research and more research; sleepless nights and I had to depend on flu meds to sleep; worse still dreamt of work. :(

:)

2010-01-03T00:33:00.005+08:00

these are e shopping items that I had bought with vinna dear during last shopping trip in 2009. hey I had finally went to a proper shopping! but how much I had spent, you won't wanna know. :P anyway I had enjoyed that day - spending money without feeling a pinch and it's not other people's money too. next's up: CNY SHOPPING! (when I had e time).

I need to know a lot of things on my fingertips on mon as CI will be back! grrr.. anyway, today's work was quite substandard. I'm nervous when e staff nurse assessed me on my skills which I have no problem at all and I performed wrong way of administering an inj. no patient is fine, it's just e methods. I'm sleepy too as I only have 4 hours of sleep e previous night. I think I'd screwed up today's shift work although I've no problem in taking my case. hope mon will be better!

anyway I've baked chocolate chips peppermint cookies! pictures!

it's gone now and I baked like only yesterday evening. shall triple e ingredients or x4! :D

next's up on my list: macademia chocolate chips cookies. :D + oatmeal raisins! yums!

happy new year!

2010-01-01T00:32:00.000+08:00

2nd new year resolution - find a husband. LOL!

I'm turning 21 in 2 wks plus.

2009-12-29T00:04:00.003+08:00

I don't wanna to receive e key and after 21 years old, life will be faster as I will be working (hopefully I will pass my prcp) and days will fly~ :( anyway, cousins wanna change their guardian to me coz I understand them and able to write letters to teacher when they are not going to school. HAHA!

regarding life now.. it's better than 1st and 2nd wk in e ward. got to know e nurses, rapport was built now and I've know e ward routine better as a Staff Nurse. afternoon shift was hell today, I just took 2 cases and I'd been busy e whole afternoon shift but time passed very fast and I felt good to achieve my own objectives for e past few weeks.

hope this attachment remains as good as this. but there's more things to learn! 1st new year 2010 resolution - pass this attachment and pass out as a Staff Nurse. :)

felt so much better.

2009-12-12T00:01:00.003+08:00

temp check: should be afebrile now. I felt so so much better compared to an hour ago - temp checked 38 degrees. was 38.2 degrees when I reached home. prayed it will not go higher or else it's HIGH FEVER.

paracetamol taken, less muscle ache however the drowsiness sets in slowly. I needa sleep, mum told me to on the air con tonight but I've been wearing yoga pants to sleep for past few days in a normal fan room.

CI.. sigh, makes me don't feel like being a nurse. :(

sorry bws, unable to go for the supper. :(

it's hard.

2009-12-09T21:18:00.002+08:00

1/2 of 1st week, not too bad coz I'm still doing junior work. but.. the job of staff nurse is really difficult. you have to organize patient, call for appointment, prepare patient, manage them, watch their condition and do several solutions if they deteriorate before you call the doctor and you have to make sure every single doctor's orders are done before you pass to the another shift which is less than 8 hours. AND you are taking care of 4-5 patients(in my ward). :(

do you think I can make it? :( I hope to.

I miss them so much. I going to pay a visit to orchard on saturday. I can't wait for 25th you see. it's too far away. :'(

I've just baked.

2009-12-06T15:41:00.002+08:00

but I'm super lazy to upload the pictures up. anyway it was fudge cake with chocolate frosting which I did research just 15 mins before I baked.

the chocolate frosting was good, but it's too sweet for me. I cut the sponge cake into half and spread it with the frosting, then sandwiched it and then spread the rest of the frosting over the cake. however it seems to melt a little as I did not fridge it after I made. it's lying in the fridge right now. probably I will do it again for some friend's bday. :)

I felt that the kids will be eating happily later coz I don't fancy chocolate.

hope my attachment allows me to bake more on wkends. :) cheers.

tmr is the end of my hols.

2009-12-05T21:14:00.002+08:00

I'm gonna start my prcp on monday which determines am I able to be a nurse after 3 mths. argh, I always fear this term 'prcp'. but time really flies very fast and I am still thinking I'm a year one only known for cleaning butts and giving urinals.

I'm both scared and excited. but God pls bless me to pass this, just once will do... and I promise to do my best of course. :) HELL IS GONNA START!

1 more to my collection.

2009-12-01T21:45:00.006+08:00

aunt ann came into the shop on the last 3rd day with a teal bag. it's actually my graduation gift and I'm so stressed to be graduated by end of feb upon receiving it. I love it. I love her for thinking of me at some time. I love her for popping out of nowhere when I'm down.

another creation of mine. a xmas gift for veron but I doubt she will wear. maybe I will change after the 15th when I've got my pay.

hate this mth.

2009-11-21T21:59:00.000+08:00

a little bit more, I will break down.

too much nonsense and too much mistakes done. I just feel like getting out of this place right now.

I heart veron who will tell me off and console me at times. I tend to cling to her arm nowadays - which I will do if I'm feeling down.

oh yes, and my phone is spoilt. :(

friends.

2009-11-12T23:48:00.002+08:00

True friends doesn't need to meet every single day, week and even months.

Friends do come and go too. I experienced this in every stage of my life.

recently I had a few misunderstanding with my friends. just because of never going out with them for a few meetings, ppl will always start to say sth about you. it's not a surprise to me and I'm not affected. I felt that twitter can sometimes mislead what you tweet you know. your random thoughts at the wrong timing.

I had to work when there's chances to work - to earn my moolah so as to spend on my own will on sth I want and to reduce mum's stress too. colleague had a cardiac attack this morning and I need to help Dunhill with their manpower issue. working there is not as carefree as you think.

if only ppl are easy to please, but not everyone.

wishlist

2009-10-17T15:20:00.002+08:00

Recently I have been wanting these things, of coz I want them soon:

1. Vistaquest! Omg love this camera so much when gf showed me hers, gorgeous with the blings!

2. Hot Rollers to substitute my curling tongs. this is much more practical - set in your hair and you can do loads of things like putting on make ups while waiting for them to be done. while curling tongs you have to spend 30 mins to curl and you can't do anything else!

3. A bag. A vintage one but nothing catches my eye.

4. House to be painted which is planned to be done in Nov coz mum is not working. our bed shelves and frames will be torn off coz mum wants us to sleep on the floor. I'm not a floor sleeper, prefer something to hold the bed instead but she wants space, which I prefer to have more space than cluttered furnitures.

this is current list. :)

miss my true friends.

2009-09-30T22:29:00.003+08:00

yes, true friends doesn't need to meet everyday and they know what's happening to you in a min of talking. just met one before I go to work today.

veron called me during my break and I was half-dead. she should call on weekends now.

I miss all of you.. and yes, you too. :) (meet up soon!)

3 most satisfied things in my life now.

2009-09-17T14:00:00.005+08:00

I had finished my exams like.. 2 weeks ago. not fab though but I wanna score coz it's the last in the 3 years.

well, currently I am loving my life excluding the last few days. I'm tad annoyed by sth. shall start with the 3 most satisfied things:

FRIENDS. still loving my childhood, secondary sch (bws & gfbf), gaming (vinna dear) and colleagues. felt that they are the best.

like what my childhood friend had said "when sth happened, true friends are always there even though we didn't contact for years."

I had seen a lot of different ppl - hypocrites etc due to my clinical and ptime work. I am also able to judge the person after a few gatherings and whether is it advantage to carry on this kind of friendship. hmm..

anyway I had a manicure/pedicure session with my childhood friend coz she's a tao-kay-neo! love my french~ :)

FAMILY. aww a love-and-hate relationship. pissed me off at times and had to rely on them at times. bopian, your family. but I hate elderly who loves boy more than girl. can't believe that there's such bias-ness happening in this century. IN MY FAMILY SOME MORE! *throw face*

PHONE. ok, I don't deny I'm always changing my phone. but I had a fabulous phone now! SE C903!!
and yes in this colour too. wanna have a pink one but alas it's not in sg yet! sg is always delayed in technology. *shrugs*

I'm not that rich. it's contributed from family. :D

going colleague's place to stayover and work tmr. geeeeeeeeeeee.

last 3 exams.

2009-08-23T14:45:00.000+08:00

I've lost e mood to mug. Had studied from 11 to 2 last night after I came back home from movie. I know I shouldn't be watching movie but.. It seriously sucks to torture your brain with loads of information! I'm going to study away from home again.

Going aunt's place for 7th mth praying.

I can't wait for it to be over soon. :( but I know I will miss this too.

Any holidays planning to motivate me? Who wants to travel?

study break.

2009-08-16T16:26:00.000+08:00

I'm at work now and it's boring. I wished i could be at somewhere mugging. It's exams this coming and following week.

Alas, I'd completed my academic semester and I'm gonna miss it terribly when I start to work. The atmosphere was tensed and low mood at the last 2 days of school. And everyone starts shooting pictures with friends and lecturers. Aahhhh, I'm gonna miss my groupmates although I tend to complain.

Next photo will be us in graduation gowns.

i cried.

2009-07-30T23:05:00.000+08:00

stfu.

monday blues.

2009-07-27T21:06:00.001+08:00

felt that a lot of things irked me. I started to have e vulnerable feeling I had during my 1st few years of teens. I feel like inflicting pain on myself again. I'm sick and hating now. :(

Aunt ann cheered me a little with a green box - tiff and co. butterfly ring. I always love her.

:(

2009-07-18T14:55:00.000+08:00

tresses 3inches gone, defined curls and i'm missing my super long straight hair nw.

can I make it?

2009-07-13T22:01:00.002+08:00

I only left 2 projects - 1 and FYP. after that which is exams, then 3 weeks of specialist attachments, then holidays, then PRCP (3 mths).

I start to fear to have one day passing in a blink, it means it's one day nearer to the hell. I fear that I'm incompetent to handle patients independently. I fear that I may not do the tasks as good as the other nurses do. I fear that I will do serious mistakes. I fear that the year 2 will be better than me.

:(

done?

2009-07-06T23:13:00.002+08:00

not 100% sure whether it's finished or not. sigh, read up books today and found out we are wrong! like the very 1st project but different group - I cleaned their shit completely. the yaya papaya still said that "there there, it's like that what." bloody msian, shut up.

I wanna score, as least at B. but.. sigh, I don't think so now. it's not that easy this semester. we still stuck at our fyp! :(

no more paradise, only pain. yes, like AV. super bloated and painful.

I want to go back to paradise.

2009-06-30T23:30:00.004+08:00

it's really a break. a break from stressing horrifying projects, more brain damages, 24/7 annoying family (well sometimes I do feel that), cyber, tiring work etc. it's indescribable fun! wish to go back there again!

nth is better than going for a holiday. real holiday.

a meet up with best friend is good too.

Imma stressing nowadays due to the new grp. argh, I prepared to get a C for it. yes, a C. I am giving up 50% of it. I'm like the only brain and person who cares about this module out of 4 ppl. sigh.

stucked at my ECG analysis. how the hell to calculate those doesn't even look like PQRS wave?! god! working tomorrow. argh!

it's the day.

2009-06-22T14:33:00.001+08:00

k leaving home in 5 hours. :)

the 2 weeks holidays.

2009-06-12T22:38:00.003+08:00

I was in a state of lost. I don't know what to do. I had:

- 1 fyp which is just starting to plan to form our product. discussed with group mates these few days and there's always questions "what's your concern?" at least 6 times during each discussion. there will always be unhappiness and I will start to have migraine.
- bloody 3 to 4 projects yet to complete! I had one project which we had to reshuffle our group and makes everything so unconvenient as my original grp is going redang on 22th! I just divided the work and gonna complete 80% of it during this coming week.
- piles of stress added on us which are tests/exams after holidays. tell me how to enjoy?
- I will be working consecutively full shifts for 3 days after I come back. *cries*
- migraine is getting more and more frequent. I had a major one on tue or wed. I haven't stock up my painkillers yet.

I want to die, just feel like escaping everything and death is the only way I can thought of.

"fool" shift tmr.

2009-06-05T21:46:00.002+08:00

school ends at 9am today, only an hour. so my cliques and I drove to ikea for breakfast which lasted me till dinner. picture took by my e63 on the expressway.

working tomorrow. how I wish there's someone fetching me back home. I hate the journey to and from work. :( hate it.

jelly lens.

2009-05-30T23:55:00.002+08:00

she has her fisheye jelly lens while I'd my micro-defined lens.

common when we have new stuffs.

luckily old witch didn't work today. but she's working the same shift with me tmr. arghh!

should I get that 40 bucks uniqlo dress?

hate nightmares!

2009-05-29T23:55:00.005+08:00

worm had reached msia at this time. 10 DAYS! sucks.

I never fails to irritate her all the time. she also never fails to cry when she sees me all the time and also never fails to take my ibanking device and mess up my stuffs ALL THE TIME!

I am having more nightmares these few months compared to the last few years! I had one this afternoon during nap and I can still remembered what happened vividly. it's not really very bloody but it's just.. with the tool that I always handled 5/7 in hospital. *hair stands*

did a phone tag for my friend, finally.

a dressing table, all-time-fav eiffel tower, key, bear charms and swaroski crystals.

some retail therapy today and I was still very bothered with family ties stuffs and housework stuffs. gram always called me to do all the stuffs and it always ME! even when other sisters/cousins were around. bathing a stupid 6 year old boy and still need to feed him! oh holy, I will make sure my son won't behave like that in the future. this is the result of doting too much!

feel like dying.

muscle ache.

2009-05-23T23:34:00.000+08:00

my pain score is 1 now. had a terrible one in the morning coz I went to swim yesterday after sch. gonna swim again, and tan.

maybe i will be on a hiatus,

2009-05-18T22:33:00.002+08:00

I decided to give tonight a good "off" day and pia all the way tmr. anyway, school starts late till next week coz I don't have lab lessons for 2 weeks. yay! just finished assessment though, it always like that. next week is graduation week so there's 2 days we needn't go to school but it's e-learning day. soot!

I had got my loots from ohnavy.com and asos.com. pretty! can't wait for my 2 weeks for holidays. I had my tankini so I can go swimming to work myself and my skin colour. eww, even mummy wears sleeves specially when she cycles home from work - to tan her upper arm area and it looks so nice! we can go sentosa too. I finally keep all the loots in my wardrobe.

I'm constipated and dehydrated. I can't believe I still survive without off days on weekends and schooling all the way on weekdays.

gonna die.

so many things to do!

2009-05-12T19:12:00.003+08:00

life was hectic NOW! coz we enjoyed the first 3 weeks too much. jialat, what I need to do:

- redo project as it was totally wrong! I'm in charge. :(
- tutorial not done on vanguard sheet which due on thurs!
- fyp literature review and 1500 words report due next week!
- we had skills exams on last mon, this fri is another major one too!

crazy. always have headache. );

sleeping.

2009-05-07T22:19:00.003+08:00

as usual, sleeping in lecture. I had no idea why since this sem starts I had been sleeping in lectures lately. yawns! so yesterday, it was actually the giving out of certificates of director's list.

Director's List
Students who have excelled during the semester shall be admitted to the Director’s List. Admission to the Director’s List shall generally be capped at not more than the top 15% of students from each stage of study of each course.

To be eligible, students must have a full study load for the semester. They must also have passed each module with at least a grade D in their first attempt and have achieved a Semestral Grade Point Average (SGPA) of not less than 3.0. For students who have been granted module exemption, their total advanced standing credits (from module exemption) must not be more than 20% of the full study load for the semester.

coz the director was late, lecture continues. but to my astonishment, I saw my NAME on the 1st piece of the certificate! I thought I was sleepy but my friends saw it too. I didn't check thoroughly when I gotta my results. checked last night and it stated that I was in director's list. HAH, swapped slippers and wait. okay.... then dozed off. she came, my name was called and I took the certificate from her while my mind is still in lala land.

I'm happy coz my effort was shown. gonna work hard for this sem too. it's hard but I'm going to work double hard. :D yes, swine flu has gone down to yellow level in sg but WHO is still at level 5.

sick and drowsy

2009-05-05T21:08:00.000+08:00

today was a sleepy day. as usual slept during lecture. nasal congestion so popped meds. but it wasn't useful. whatever I ate wad bland and my voice was sexy. :(

the temp taking was troublesome but of coz detection is better than discovering later. hope no fever for this period of time! suddenly have dizzy spells these few days too and I felt a lot of sch stuffs still not done! :(

tired.

2009-05-02T20:17:00.001+08:00

sick and cough. sleepless or rather nightmares nights and waking up with soreness. :(

spent 'enuff

2009-04-24T20:39:00.002+08:00

I spent 150 bucks just one day after payday. :S

80 bucks on mani/pedi/an OPI strengthener. my manicurist said my calluses are horrible and my nails need a lot of CA!

then OhNavy.com spree for 35 USD. bought a 3/4 sleeved top, a tankini and hoodie for yishian. Sg doesn't have swimming stuffs for me. ): I am going Redang during June so I need a swimming costume :D

nuff said.

annoyed coz of..

2009-04-21T19:55:00.003+08:00

I had 2 missed call from veron this morning. the reason is that gibson, my aunt's ex bf, did not appeared during work today coz he was clearing his leave and veron was alone in the shop. she thought my school had not reopened so she wants me to work. argh!

I hate it coz the boss of Dunhill doesn't want any part timers and I am annoyed that he told her to look for me to replace him. he mentioned that he wants to remove all the part timers but he didn't. I know how Raynell and Stanley felt now - we are just spare parts. they managed to find another part timer to cover so why do I need to work? tsk.

I hate that bloody idiotic italian angmoh.

after 2 years of sabotage,

2009-04-20T18:25:00.001+08:00

they managed to get me as the class treasurer. argh!

my sweat glands were overactive today.

back to school!

2009-04-19T15:33:00.002+08:00

I'm prepared to go back. I can foresee the stress of final year coming! sigh!

I'm having acne breakout! wonder is due to the heat (it's freaking hot these few days! I'm going to melt) or dust. sigh. hope Mario Badescu does a miracle.

good weekend.

2009-04-15T23:01:00.006+08:00

won't be working. :D had my weekends starting from tmr packed. tmr will be sakae sushi buffet with friends at Sentosa (duh! so far!). friday will be dining with gfbf. saturday will be family day/evening with jinghua and jingfeng and sunday will be packing for school reopens

things I need to get:
1. Stationaries and files for school
2. Mp3 (I wanna get sony but lawrence said no)
3. New phone (was thinking of LG ice cream)
4. A ring! (either tiffany or coach)

pretty? :D I will declare bankrupt after I purchase all these. should I sign a contract with hospital?

I wanna travel.

2009-04-14T20:58:00.002+08:00

I am very restless during work these 2 days. super no mood to work, plus the stupid GM of Dunhill doesn't want any part timer anymore and this cooks up a hot topic during work. please! fire me asap! work really sucks nowadays esp. under his management. everyone turns into zombies! argh!

I wanna travel, badly. my sis is going taiwan in June. I WANNA GO SOMEWHERE TOO! I don't want to stay in Singapore and I should be granted to go traveling! it's not fair when my younger sister is able to go with friends but I can't. damn! how weird am I to have these thoughts coz I'm a home person.

a few more days to school reopens! can't wait, no more till 6pm classes but 8am classes almost every morning. ); woot.

lazy weekend.

2009-04-11T21:50:00.002+08:00

housework, slacking, snacking but meet up with band peeps on friday night. did oreo cheese balls, cooked dinner for uncle (the 1st pic) and just now I cooked eggs with mozarella, parmesan cheese etc. hardly feeling hungry now but still craves for it.

working tomorrow. argh.

welcome.

2009-04-10T01:52:00.002+08:00

open my arms to my 2 off days. loads of things to do.. housechores as usual with extra cleaning, baking my rainbow cupcakes, shop for sch stuffs and more! in 2 days. treasure it.

but I was sick. );

need sweet therapy.

2009-04-08T20:21:00.004+08:00

I'm surviving mainly on sugars now. but managed to get my carbs food. ); working nowadays, as I had said, was horrible. hmph, I had been eating 1 to 2 meals each day. rahh, how weird that I didn't go hypo state.

after tomorrow, it will be my 2 off days. gonna bake! :D

I'm sad, coz of my aunt's ex bf is tiring me in the store and.. my 2 colleagues are having off days tomorrow. so, I am working with the guy and 2 elderly. argh.

emotionally stressed. I cried to sleep 2 nights ago and I still feel unhappy.

getting on my nerves.

2009-04-03T23:18:00.002+08:00

I almost break down during work today but managed to hold back. today is my 6th day of work, consecutive 2nd full shift and last night I worked till 1am. fucked.

feeling bad.

2009-03-30T01:23:00.001+08:00

I'm so annoyed and fucked up. why can't people just understands me?

pregnant.

2009-03-24T01:23:00.005+08:00

no I'm not. but I want to have my own baby soon maybe at the age of 24? that's 4 years left! gosh, I want to have artifical fertilization - might get twins or more, up to 8! wow no la, not that many. pregnancy seems to be a very wonderful experience. I was thinking of going to sperm bank to get fertilize if I'm not married. hah! *ang moh's please*

was reading this superwoman who is a singaporean but she travels to USA due to her hubby's work, tinkerhippo. she just gave birth to her baby girl! she always have positive thinking and I admired her.

2 of my teeth have holes! so horrified during work as I go and look inside the mirror. no wonder I have toothache. I really need to go for a dental appt. sucks, the fillings dropped off, gees. maybe next month.

working almost every single day. I need to reach at 7am for work in paragon! seriously, I can't imagine myself in work when the sun hasn't even rise and in town some more. during the 2nd and 3rd april, I might work night shift.. @!#*$& due to the opening of the newly renovated Dunhill. hope the sales will be good, or I will screw everyone and everyone will screw me.

so many things to do,
so many people to meet,
so little time.

tired.

2009-03-17T23:41:00.001+08:00

4 days of full shifts? I'd lost count. argh, tiring.

hmm. got back my results! I think my SEQ screwed my biology up and I've got a C+. other than that, quite contented - 1 distinction, 2 As and 4 Bs.

I'm finally morning shift tomorrow and gonna go shop around to pamper myself a little. (;

argh!

2009-03-05T23:46:00.002+08:00

I might get paranoid delusions soon! my patient go and brushed my hair! that stupid tiko who asked me to marry him for the past few days. he commented my boobs are big and big boobs ladies will love him. wtf. ARGH! I MAY GET ADMITTED TO IMH SOON!

busy.

2009-03-01T20:43:00.002+08:00

my schedule are tightly fitted as normal. my zuin is so gorgeous yesterday for her engagement. it's like seeing my sister being engaged and malay's engagement are interesting (;

I will be looking forward to every saturday for band practice =D and able to see my lovable ppl. =D

imh tomorrow, argh. hope it's not as bad as I think.

satisfied, can I ask for more?

it's over!

2009-02-19T20:56:00.002+08:00

I'm not going to score as well as last semester. soot.

back to clinical. I miss all my friends - bf, gf & bws.

shit.

2009-02-17T13:18:00.001+08:00

I gave up on the diagnosis on AIDs and I mixed up the clinical features with rhematoid arthitis. hopefully the marker won't penalize coz it's SAQ.

argh, 2 more papers to go!

exams!

2009-02-11T15:46:00.000+08:00

I don't have the mood to study, or rather my brain is dead after 231745189 topics, illnesses, treatments and managements. I left 3 to 4 topics but once I opened my book and started reading, I felt nausea and sleepy. I'm tired today, I slept 10 hours till 11am, I even had a dream that I slept till 2pm today - and everything was not done. hahaha!

man, coffee.

cny pictures!

2009-02-04T20:56:00.003+08:00

it's been a while since I blogged. cyber is getting more and more boring. I hardly had time to get to use too. morning shift since last week and finally it's afternoon shift tomorrow! =D sleeping time + 5 more hours. hee hee! morning shifts are always hectic, no time to rest at all. 1/2 hour break and that's it - document important charts, bathe the patients, make sure they are alright, clean the wound, report writing etc etc.

but I still like the hectic times, time flies faster and then it's time to go home. =D it's exams next week. sigh, I did quizzes on medication on the net and the results shucks. soot!

I had a fun time working with cassandra, my babe. crazy girl! haha!

had a urge to upload cny pictures, here it goes!

there's a monkey on the left.

I love these shots. the 4 of us wanna get a proper picture together and finally we did!

woo! 1st family picture!

I don't really like her coz she don't like me. but who doesn't like small kids?

the 1st picture is really a joke man. I didn't know till I saw it just now! =p

I need to really buck up in my studies. should restrained myself from playing and stuffs. I still haven't open my angbaos - lazy, like last year.

alright ciao!

need 100 years to sleep.

2009-01-30T22:39:00.003+08:00

it feels like I'm going to die sooner or later. my body muscle ache, migraine and sleepiness. argh, I took dhamol, actually it's for kids, 1000mg in 20 mls. it feels much more better now. I slept for 2 hours in the evening but it doesn't make me feel more awake.

I need more sleep. I will go off after yihan's family came back. pretty lazy to close all the windows and doors again coz the dog is at home. maybe I should pop my sleeping pill to get a good night sleep.

I don't know why..

2009-01-29T17:16:00.004+08:00

if you are lazy to take care of kids, why bother to give birth to one more? my aunt-in-law came back from don't-know-where and I was taking care of cousin since half an hour ago, I was carrying all the way.

I'm tired too, stood the whole day during attachment; bend down and straighten up for countless times; walked here and there. I woke up at 5.45am and it's like 10 hours I've been standing except the 15 mins breakfast. do housework at home but she had her husband to do so. I still have clothes to iron leh.

I took the initiative to bathe her kid. all she did is standing outside and my sis came to see, don't want to help and walked away. her kid cried, as usual coz she slipped from gram's hand before during bathing, both of them came in and said, "you know how to bathe her?" and "why bathe like that?". before that I told yihan this will happened. so, I know how to react.

"if you want fast, I can give you fast and clean.", "everytime I bathed her, you always got comments one.", so aunt-in-law blamed my eldest aunt-in-law instead coz she was helping me. she said she wasn't blaming me and why I'm angry of her. "ppl helped me and you blamed other ppl coz you cannot say me back ma."

it was a hoo-ha man. told my uncle about his wife. stupid duh. well never make a tired person furious and DON'T give birth to more than 1 kid if you are lazy to take care la.

happy chinese new year.

2009-01-26T22:36:00.002+08:00

it's pretty bored. the celebration in my extended family is getting more and more boring each year. the number of ppl stays in granduncle's house till the night is decreasing after great-gram's death. I wonder how will I spend my another day tomorrow. I dressed casually - make up isn't that great too and my hair didn't curl well today.

argh.

I'm really sick!

2009-01-18T21:13:00.007+08:00

terrible! my throat is a little sore and I'm having cough. I don't want lozenges coz previously I consumed almost every single day and I'm having phobia. I'm having blocked nose too. aahhhhh!

work today is quite tiring or maybe I'm sick. but I am quite happy with myself coz I sold a lot of man's shirts! 1 of the bills is 1433 bucks! weee.. though it's not my commission but I like to help ppl.

last night went out to dine. but I really lost my appetite and god ma said my face is green. ); so I didn't eat much up to today. after that we went to different florists or rather gardens and went back around 9pm to rush my report.

I can't wait for this week to end and I want to get my shopping list done on friday.

redo veron's phone tag, coz her rocking horse is damaged. all in gold! =D

man, I feel like changing mine too. I love gold. );

cny in a week!

2009-01-17T16:49:00.002+08:00

I haven't get my bottoms, my shoes, bags and lingerie. shit. so little time, so many things to do. I'm MC today, not really MC coz I don't need to have one, had my red on the 1st day - which is very p
painful. );

but I enjoyed my birthday last night with bws. =D thanks. life's gonna be different with the ones I love.

happy birthday.

2009-01-16T08:32:00.002+08:00

I am sick! had diarrhea, muscle aches, headaches and I guessed the next upcoming one will be fever. ); I don't want to fall sick coz I don't want to stay at home and not going for attachment. have to make up leh. I just took Dhacopan, which I thought it's for diarrhea but it's antispasmodic. shit, no medicines for diarrhea.

argh!

i hate kkh.

2009-01-13T20:32:00.004+08:00

it was boring. at least there's some things to do today but I wasn't as confident enough as how I faced the adult patients in cgh. paediatrics are more fragile and must be really aseptic enough to handle them. I hate my clinical instructor(CI). god! she's a biatch.

I am going to work afternoon shift on friday.
#1: the CI said that we must have special reasons to change. my friends said that saying that day is my birthday is not special enough, must say my family having a dinner coz someone travel to sg to visit us. I don't want to lie. argh!
#2: even if I'm going out, I can go out after that coz I didn't even sweat in the ward lor. it's cooling in the ward - half air conditioned.
#3: I don't want to bother other ppl to swap with me.

I just did syimah's present! =D it's pretty, I like it too.

a floral ball (as usual), a key for her 21st birthday, fork and spoon with blings & flower crystals with a camera! =D

rah, morning shift tmr then afternoon. need to wake up at freaking 5am where my sisters are all sleeping like pigs! talking about sisters, I washed my hands off my youngest one. she deliberately make me angry when her beloved father is around so I will shout at her, then I will get scolding from him. great, she will kena again when he's out of town. *evil grin*

argh, hate kkh.

it's the end of semester 2 of year 2.

2009-01-08T21:45:00.002+08:00

my god, when school reopens it will be year 3. fuk! fyp and prcp gonna stress me out! actually I still have exams to go before I end year 2. it's kinda no mood to study. at last, the last project presentation is done! there's no school tomorrow but I will be doing spring cleaning for the house. =D

ssooo, I went out with vinna today. went to cotton on, managed to get a top which is meant for cny la. hmmm. need to get a pair of 3/4 jeans or bermudas then. quite troublesome though, I kinda lazy to dress in 2 pcs nowadays. I am dismay that there's no crocs that I want. shall see during the weekends. spending money wisely! );

attachment is NEXT WEEK. stupid kkh, no allowances too. I want it to be faster so I can get back to cgh. sleeping is precious. I am quite annoyed with my skin, applied lotions and sleeping mask before I sleep, to prepare for cny though I am not looking forward to it. but I want to look best on that day hah. *had to smile and greet the ones I don't respect*

I ate a lot but my digestive system is not working very well. sigh. more fruits!

school & shop

2009-01-05T21:36:00.002+08:00

school was 2 hours of lecture - bio! god. tomorrow school starts late too. more sleep =D

shopping for 3 hours plus in orchard. got a dress for cny and guessed how much - soot 50 bucks! ); but that's the only piece that caught my attention and I will it in the future. it's casual too, but mummy said it's short. will be revealed during cny! but need to shop some more, didn't get much.

aarghhh, attachment next week.

day out with bf.

2009-01-02T22:17:00.002+08:00

I did my curls in 15 mins today. =D wore my grey lenses and soot, my degree increased! $*^"&@#! I tore one of my lenses and had to replace it with a new one. the fact that it defines your iris, and the old one shrinks in size. so I had one big iris and one small iris. tsk.

I didn't iron my clothes. it will be a pile of mountain tomorrow. soot, but a day out with bf is worth it. finally we met up after 231276540 months. =D

walked from chinatown, aiyer too bad you didn't get your fred perry. then to bugis haji lane and arab street to get charms. weeee, finally I bought the gold ones. pretty. this is my charm collection!

then to orchard. back to tampines and settled down for dinner at subway. gf must be too bored while waiting for us and she dozed off hahaha!

working, monday is cny shopping day with shopping kakis. =D happy new year. oh yah, one more resolution, I don't want to have a bf. (sis has one and she always say that she don't want a bf. my god ma said you had to say the opposite) so I don't want bf, I don't want to get married soon! =D

deja vu.

2008-12-31T16:30:00.004+08:00

my nightmares came true instead. I dreamt that I had an argument with veron and the scene is via sms but she had bad mood during work. so on last sunday, it came true! argh, and she sounded badly when I smsed her why she's bad mood on sunday and.. everything is similar to my nightmare.

I had migraine! thanks to waking up at 6am for BCLS. well, I passed my CPR though. there's school on friday but I skipped it. so I am not going to meet the girls later. anyway, I don't feel like. I know I sounded harsh, I mean that's how I feel.

new year solution!

1. As for my modules and graduated in 2010!
2. peace and good health for my family and friends.

3. less mood swings.

4. more MONEY! (should I get a bond?)

5. lose weight (argh!)

6. more meet up with bf & gf. =D

7. I can't think of anything else.

aaahhhhhhhhhh. warcraft.

1 more day to school.

2008-12-27T11:39:00.002+08:00

I had CPR assessment when school reopens. I hate that, I almost forgot all the steps to do CPR. I'm gonna take a while to practice perfectly again, all the depths when you compress etc.

I'm dragging Breaking Dawn. hahahaha, I don't wanna finished it so quickly and at the same time I want to know the Happily Ever After. but after the book, I will be traveling to school with my music and back home. it will be bored as the same songs kept singing in my head. gee.

I think I looked horrifying now. I need to work last minute yesterday and I worked till 10pm. it's not a complain or what, I appreciated that my help is always helpful to them. it's gonna be the last xmas I'm working with them. =D but damn it, I think the make up everyday added on to my pale ivory coloured face and my nails broke! I will cut and file all them nicely tomorrow.

OFF WORK BYE.

breaking dawn.

2008-12-25T22:03:00.003+08:00

halfway through my 4th book. I love it.

it was a bit ludicrous when godma tried to matchmake me and my cousins' band instructor. but it's a nono, he's not my cup of tea.

I'm lethargic these few days and I don't know what's the cause. chalet wasn't great, as usual. I was more elated to get back to work but I am hungry. for the whole day, I had a packet of milk, a crab nugget, 2 biscuits and a bowl of congee. oh yah, I had a packet of titbits just now.

getting too fat. sigh. oooh and 3 more days to school and a few more days to 2009. so dreadful. :(

twilight

2008-12-22T20:56:00.002+08:00

finally watched it. I rated it 6/10. the book is definitely much more better. there's not much verbalization within the characters, mostly are non-verbal cues. but I love the part when they played baseball, the speed of the vampires & of coz the part when Alice pulled off James' head in order to have him burn in the fire to kill him.

.. the Cullens family is gorgeous. Carlisle is handsome too! hahahaha, Edward is always charming. I always think that Kristen won't do a good job for Bella, but after watching, I think she did and she's the perfect candidate.

ok, I am tired. I had a chapter to finish in eclipse and I will read the last book! muah!

6 days of work.

2008-12-21T21:27:00.002+08:00

I'm seriously worn out. I'm still sick. );

having gastric pain now. jesus! I hate orchard right now coz it's VERY CROWDED! whenever you go, it's human jam. I had to spend 15 mins to walk to mrt station from paragon now. it's irritating!

I'M GOING TO WATCH TWILIGHT IN THE MORNING TOMORROW! I hope it will not be disappointing coz it's gonna be different from the book. hot edward, I am going to finish eclipse soon, left a few more chapters. because of work, I had neglected the book or else I will finished it by now.

this week is going to be relaxation and enjoyment for me. twilight tomorrow and family chalet. =D

life's full of liars.

2008-12-17T22:33:00.003+08:00

no I don't meant you bf. hahaha, I know you're tired of the shoot ytd and I don't really blame you for not coming.

2 sides are lying precisely, my aunt and her ex bf now. he broke up with her weeks ago and he has a gf now. my family and I are unable to trust both their words, it's.. sigh. but seeing my aunt suffering in pain, it always think that he's the one who is at fault. but, she's too naive and thinks that everything will ends like fairy tale, which is happily ever after.

I am the only kid in the her house while they are discussing loudly outside. it feels not good, I felt I'm as if I was restrained. argh! TALK TO ME ON MSN!

it was a fuking ominous weekend

2008-12-15T13:16:00.003+08:00

before I start all my rantings, I would like ppl who will tell me these "he's your dad overall", "you shouldn't be like that to him".. just fuck off ok? thanks.

it wasn't my day since saturday night. I was woken up by his arrival back home from his working trip by 1/2 hour from my alarm clock timing! cb. so I told him not to wash all the clothes first, mummy will wash for him. he said that she mixed all his working clothes with his formal ones to wash together. then I rise my voice that he should separate his clothes himself AND HE ALSO WASH THEM TOGETHER IF HE DID HIMSELF. he knows he's at losing end, so he kept his mouth shut.

quarreled early in the morning, colleagues quarreled during working and went home quarreled with the youngest sis. I lost my fifty bucks, sigh I know I should left there. she behaved so suspiciously and I of course asked her la! she didn't want me to check her bag too. so he (that idiot) woke up and scolded me for being noisy when I always reached home. fucking idiotic. I feel like smacking his face and tell him in his face that he can make a lot of noise when we are sleeping but not vice versa.

I am sick and tired of living in my house, I can't wait to get out. suddenly I have suicidal thoughts again, you know I am prone to death. you won't be surprised if I died from a car accident coz I always cross the road even the car was driving towards me at 60 km/h. or I may died from cardiac arrest or in my sleep.

if it does, I would like my funeral to be white, including my coffin and the flowers. the family should pay as I wasted my youth in making the house comfy to stay but they don't appreciate it.

he thinks that he will go to heaven if he passed away coz he's a christian and he continued to do all his sins. what an idiotic thought.

sigh, I am glad that I have my friends esp. Wayne. he's the best bf I had always treasured. he's like Jacob in twilight. =D thank you.

hope all will be better.

edward cullen is love.

2008-12-12T19:59:00.000+08:00

yay it's holidays but I don't have holiday mood. I had been neglecting my sleep lately just to read my favourite author - Stephanie Meyer's book! woo. I am going to finish New Moon by tomorrow. =D

can someone get me a very handsome vampire like Robert Pattinson? HE IS HOT. muahahahaha, but the book illustrated that Edward is more handsome leh. sigh.

I want to be Bella. (;

hope my prayers will be answered.

2008-12-07T19:58:00.006+08:00

hope veron dear will be alright. ); I am so worried of her in that state.

another thing brightens up me: vinna is coming back to sg in 2 days. =D can't wait to see her!

shopping and family day tomorrow. I still don't know what to get presents for the colleagues but I did one for raynell.

messy table. it's difficult to work with a single plyer, AND I need to get more charms from arab street. aahhhh!for my xmas secret friend.
for raynell. I love the flower though.

sigh what can I get to make a person happy?

rah!

2008-12-06T21:04:00.002+08:00

my godparents found out my tattoo. soot! but they did not say anything, they accepted the news. it wasn't a taboo in the family.

the one that I worried to let her know is my grandmother. sheesh!

1st post.

2008-12-05T23:45:00.000+08:00

this week was fast. school finished within a blink and 2 projects down. =D I'm back to blogging, ahem, in public.

well I had been well-fed and well-treated but academic stress is unavoidable. 1 week to go to holidays and I can't wait to go back for work. it's been 3 weeks I saw my dear colleagues and I miss them.

2 projects presentation next week and 1 BCLS theory exam on wed (it's regarding CPR). oh I did CPR until I strained my back muscles and my thumb palm area is kinda of sore. );

I'm happy tonight coz my cousins bought me a cardigan which I wanted from esprit which caused about 70 bucks for my xmas and bday. WASTE MONEY LOR! but thanks a lot, *smooches*

shopping tomorrow for secret friend and xmas presents.

2008-12-05T22:08:00.001+08:00

test.

Morning Blooms.

blog changed.

www.singsale.com.sg

IT'S ENDING!

home made eye primer!

super duper stressed up.

stressed.

let's get back to reality.

how shld I feel?

my new baby.

saving money.

a good start this week.

always have this thoughts every morning when I wakes up.

5 years and counting.

alcohol and shisha.

TGIF!

waiting for them.

think far.

our efforts always will not be appreciated.

bad mood.

日有所思 夜有所梦

prcp ends!

absurd.

job application.

wishlist.

:)

happy new year!

I'm turning 21 in 2 wks plus.

felt so much better.

it's hard.

I've just baked.

tmr is the end of my hols.

1 more to my collection.

hate this mth.

friends.

wishlist

miss my true friends.

3 most satisfied things in my life now.

last 3 exams.

study break.

i cried.

monday blues.

:(

can I make it?

done?

I want to go back to paradise.

it's the day.

the 2 weeks holidays.

"fool" shift tmr.

jelly lens.

hate nightmares!

muscle ache.

maybe i will be on a hiatus,

so many things to do!

sleeping.

sick and drowsy

tired.

spent 'enuff

annoyed coz of..

after 2 years of sabotage,

back to school!

good weekend.

I wanna travel.

lazy weekend.

welcome.

need sweet therapy.

getting on my nerves.

feeling bad.

pregnant.

tired.

argh!

busy.

it's over!

shit.

exams!

cny pictures!

need 100 years to sleep.

I don't know why..

happy chinese new year.

I'm really sick!

日有所思夜有所梦